Results

So, just to keep you guys in the loop.  My doctor had blood taken to run several tests. They all came back clear. 
Praise the Lord!  He did a big work in my heart the week that they took the blood.  I was at a place where I was wanting the doctors (mine or Luke's) to find something wrong so that we could get it fixed and be done with this season.  (It's kinda scary to think about this now.)  Through a series of fantastic conversations with Luke and some of the women that God has surrounded me with, He showed me that I'm still not letting go & trusting Him.  I ended up finishing that week with a statement to Luke: "I'm ready to not have an answer, to really let go and struggle well.  I don't want to take any of the fertility medications they mentioned, b/c I know I'd be doing it just to feel in control."
I feel like we took the medically responsible route, and that's the only part that I need to do. 

So, in case you haven't guessed yet, all of the tests came back at normal levels.  And now I can really say "Praise the Lord" and mean it!  Thank you my gracious God!!
Thank you all for your prayers!  We are truly blessed by you!

Struggles & God's Sweet Sweet Grace

Okay folks... so we just had our third year anniversary, and we're trying to start a new phase in the Henderson home. 
As most of you know, we've been trying to have a baby for about two years now.  "Why haven't you gotten tested yet?" you may ask...Well, that is a very loaded question.  I have personally been struggling with where the line is between trust/faith in God to provide and the wisdom/knowledge that He has blessed our doctors with.  (Now before you go any farther, I think you should know that this is an ongoing struggle.) 
What I can tell you is that our God has placed some fantastic women around me to pray, encourage, and feel for me without adding the common (but not very helpful) comments about how "it'll happen", "you're still young", & "you'll be next".  : \
I'm not really sure why I'm writing this, other than to reflect on a few of the things our God has revealed to me recently. 
1. Romans 8 - ...there is no condemnation... 
   The irrational guilt that I feel each month is a spiritual battle that I will need to fight.  I just realized this weekend that the guilt wasn't just a reaction that on a physical level I'm not providing my husband with what we both want so much.  Beyond that, I have been feeling as if this is a punishment for not staying in the word, and for the apathy that I've had in my relationship w/ Christ. 
   But today I was blessed with an amazing conversation w/ Luke about the freedom that we're provided through Christ & reminded of in Romans 8.  Even if in His grace He is using the lack of children to pull me closer to Him, that's NOT punishment it IS love!!  Praise God for this!!

2. We're moving forward with testing just to have some answers.  However, I do still struggle with the line between faith & medical assistance. (Only med. help in this case, not for all medical issues)  No surprise that it's a control issue.  I Like to be in control!  Because of this each step that we take as a family will continue to be slow, with lots of prayer and inspection of our (my) intentions.

3. Jealousy is another gigantic stumbling block for me right now.  I love kids, and am so thankful that we get to spend time w/ families around us.  Unfortunately, this doesn't lessen the small shoot of pain that I feel when I hear another announcement of pregnancy or see a fb update page of nothing but new baby pics on 95% of the feed. 

Basically, as we wait for test results we are praying for increased faith, trust, patience, healing, loose fisted-ness, & desire for more of HIM! 
We're praising & thanking for our support & the love that He's showing us through the community He has surrounded us with and for the conversations He has given us as a couple.  We grow so much closer and stronger in our marriage through these times.  And looking forward to great visits with family this summer and fall.

Please join us in praying for these things!  We love you guys!

Holy Cow

Well folks, it has officially been over a year since I posted ANYthing.  That means that probably nobody will read this.  Oh well.  If I had done a Christmas card for 2011 it would probably read something like this:

2011 has been a generally pleasant year.  We have kept busy between work, school, and friends.  We volunteer together on Sunday mornings in the 1 year old class, and enjoy our small goup/Sunday School time.  We also tried out our green thumbs with a raised veggie/fruit garden.  The strawberries and bell peppers were the best!

Lynn was promoted to Work Director of her team in Wells Fargo's Home Preservation Settlement team, and is thriving on the responsibility. It is a very transitory department, so her bosses rely heavily on her knowledge.  This fall she joined the church choir.  She loves the fellowship that worshiping together has fostered in this group!  She even got to sing a solo/duet in the Christmas Night of Worship program.  (See our very crude video/audio below)

Her beloved grandfather (Pop-Pop) passed away in September, but our Gracious God provided some sweet/healing family time as we all converged on Cape Coral, Florida for the services.  It is still difficult at times.  Thankfully we have the confort of knowing that he is with the Lord, as well as the peace that He provides as The great Comforter. 
We're looking forward to the arrival of her first (on her side of the family) nephew, Rivers, in January!

Luke's classes have gone very well, he's loving all the philosopy classes.  It's loking like his graduation will happen in December 2012.  He is still planing to pursue his Doctorate in Philosophy (with the end goal of teaching along the lines of philosphy/logic/metaphysics).  We had a great time at Frontier Camp in East Texas this summer as he spoke to Teen Week A about the book of James.  We love getting to connect with the campers, staff, and (our favorite) the other Hendersons!  We were able to meet his newest niece Sarah in her first few weeks of life!  (She followed in the other niece's footsteps and fell instantly in love with her Uncle Luke...that man has a gift!)
He continues to earn the title of  "Best Husband Ever" as he juggles the delicate balance of school/work/ministry/husband & home.  He spoils Lynn nonstop by surprising her with a clean home & cooked supper on her return from work a few nights each week!

We are praising the Lord for his presence, love, protection, and blessings in 2011!