reflections

I typed this up at work last Thursday...sorry it took so long to get it up here.

I have discovered through a bad day at work that I am a control freak. I am the person in the office who accidentally causes conflict. While venting to Luke (and the bunch's) at supper last night I was lovingly guided to the realization that I think I'm better than everyone else. Ouch….not fun to realize that. When I think something should be common sense I feel the need to let everyone else know, even when it doesn't matter one way or the other.

In this instance my newly trained team was being told (by a non-authority) not to work till our report updated (9:30-10am) even though we have a list from the previous day to work from for that 1.5 - 2 hour time period. So I felt the "need" to clarify (through our trainer) that we didn't have to waste that time. Why? The volume of my work didn't change if they worked or sat. (P.S. I love that it's broken down that way) I have jokingly passed my sin off as "OCD" or as other ppl's fault for years. Thank you Lord for my Godly sweet husband and friends, that you lead me to repentance through them. Please keep this fresh in my mind, so I can trust you and not rely on myself.
On another note:
Two of my dearest friends had birthdays this past week (the 14th and 15th), and I was too far away to have birthday dinner with them. :( this is the first time since 2006 that I missed rebekah's, and though anna has been away for awhile, I still missed her tons due to the reminder. Homesickness isn't fun. I don't feel out of place here anymore, but it's still not home.